I wish I had more time to spend writing on my blog! More time to do many things! There just never seems to be enough time in the day. You have your mind set at doing one thing, then something else seems to come up and get in the way. For me, it never fails!! But, I have got to do something to get myself better organized.
I think to start, I have to get myself back in good mental condition. This past week has not been a good one for me as far as Friendships are concerned. Friendships and Work don't seem to go together well. Especially when you work closely in the same office and you both have very strong personalities, and when one has a personal relationship with Christ and one does not.
What was once a really good friendship no longer exists. Not because I want it that way, but because they want it that way. They don't know the true meaning of forgiveness because they hold on to bitterness and anger in their heart. And it is not necessary. Unfortunately this person also told me that they were tired of this "religious phase" of mine, that they know who and what I am really like. Boy if that wasn't a knife in the heart. Not because there is any trueth to it, but because this person was once a friend and I truly love and care about this person and her family. I was crushed. This person has NO CLUE!!!! BUT, I know the only thing I can do is to continue to pray for this person. Pray that God will break through her rock hard heart and she will find her way to the Lord.
I think this might also be the case with the other person. They seem to know the Lord, but I question if they really have a personal relationship with him. I don't think they realize what they do to the people around them. I don't think they really care. Again, all I can do is pray for them and move on with my life! It would be detrimental for me to continue to try and work on these relationships. I know that I need to cut my loses and move on, but it doesn't hurt any less.
Well, that is about all I want to say right now! Maybe I can get some sleep now! It has been a rough week and a really rough day! I am off to read some scripture and hopefully get some sound sleep with the few hours that are left.
Beth
3 comments:
Beth,
God brings people into our lives all the time and if these relationships have cooled for the moment spend time with new people that have come into your life.
I don't think you have to cut your losses, but just wait until a crisis or something else brings an openness once again to those relationships.
Glad that you took Zack to the R.A. camp out! He loves putting stuff in the campfire. We must have told him a million times to quit and he would just wait until no one was looking and throw something else in!
Glad that you took time to write!
Keep it up!
Eddy
Eddy,
Thanks for reading my Blog!! Its nice to know your still peeking in on me!
Boy, oh Boy did your message hit hard today!! I have definitely been facing some Giants and unfortunately I was trying to face them mostly on my own. I let God help some, but It wasn't quick enough for me and I had to try and speed things up. And of course I messed things up.
Its hard for you to understand without knowing the whole story, but at this juncture, believe me when I say that cutting my losses and letting go is what God wants me to do for now! If they are meant to be in my life, God will bring them back. The opportunity will be there again.
I was focused on the Giants and not on God! I was trying to win the battle on my own and not allowing God to do his work. I learned a good lesson and then your message today just drove the nail home!!!!
I will be looking to God to fight all my battles and allow the Glory to be his. I will no longer be afraid of the Giants in my life and I will not try to fight them alone!
Beth
Beth,
I have your blog link on my blog so all I have to do is click over and see if you have written anything. It takes a second to check that way.
Glad that the sermon helped. The next message is "Desperate Days" when David took his focus off God!
Have a great week!
Eddy
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